Exiled.
climbing vines and faded oriental rugs
a rambling grey house built of stone
reminiscent of a time long gone
but where sprang afresh our new love
late autumn waltzes along the rooftop parapets
you became home to me
swaying under a star-studded sky
you promised you'd never leave
but promises made are broken oft
and your love for me proved untrue
this you expressed on the garden patio
and left -
now, i'm homesick for you.
the two cups of ice sit in their own condensation
like i sit alone in my tears
empty halls reverberate silence
reminding me you're not near
i'm as unraveled and worn as a threadbare tapestry
that's hung in an extra room and forgotten
because the memories you left me with, love,
haunt me when the sky is darkened
the stars don't shine for us anymore
and the chasm cut between our hearts is vast
i'll never nurture any hope that we'll cross it,
any hope that you'd ever turn back
i didn't want that goodbye to be final
even though it was i who held the door
but thoughts of you disintegrate into dust
you, exiled from my heart, forevermore.
written 12 September 2020